In my blog the other day, I wrote about how I, as a mixed race
person and probably some others, had problems with forms that had you fill out
your race. So today I thought I would
share just a few of my experiences that involve people who were ‘curious’ about
my races. I put ‘curious’ like this
because I really think most of them were just nosy or bored.
One of the questions I get a lot is “what are you?” Seriously.
I get that from my own family. So I think that I will use that as the
theme for this particular post.
“What are you?”
One of the times that I had to answer that question was
shortly after Big Daddy’s funeral, when we gathered for the meal. Big Daddy was
my mother’s father and her family was all from the south. It’s a bit more common to use Big Daddy/Big
Mama for grandparents. I was in middle
school and sitting with my cousins. One
of the girls was coloring, when she suddenly looked up at me and asked, “If
your mom’s black and your dad’s white, what are you?”
Now I will remind people who have read my last post that my
mom is Black/Native American but most of her family doesn’t know that. I got into genealogy early and often
interviewed my parents about family history.
That’s why it was a black and white question, she asked me. Yes, I also realized the pun.
My immediate answer was, “Grey.” My cousin looked at me
strangely. My skin wasn’t grey but a
light light brown. It must have confused
her, but I took her black and white crayons and showed her how they made grey.
I didn’t think much of it until after I had returned home. Of course I had been
asked the question before, but this time it was someone from my own
family. She was little, but it
eventually made me wonder how many relatives didn’t know what to make of
me. Strangers, confusion was to be
expected.
I take the train a lot.
Mainly because both my school and my internship is in the city, while my
home and my job is about an hour away by train for now. I don’t like dealing with strangers,
especially when I’m almost always constantly on the go and stressed out. So
while I’m waiting for the train at most stations, I have my purple headphones
on. Usually I don’t have them plugged
in. I just use them as a device to
discourage people from brothering me.
However, at this one train station, the headphones were not
working. People, who I do not know, for some
reason I was never told, have taken to coming up to me. They stand and look at me. I’m not talking about glancing at me out the
side of their eye but literally staring directly in my face and for such a long
time, that reaching out and punching them in the nose seems like a good
idea. Nobody likes to be studied that
closely by strangers unless they are posing for an art class.
I am somewhat use to being looked at. Most people who come
from racially mixed families are generally subjected to being looked at, when
they are together. It comes with the territory, but the people staring at me in
the train station was just downright too up close and personal. The first time
one of them actually said something to me it was:
Rando person: “Hey, I know you’re black and Indian, but what
are you?”
Me: (Removes earphones pretending not to hear) Huh?Rando person (louder): You black and Indian..what else?
And it gradually increased from there. People have come up and told me that they made
bets on if I was Hawaiian, or if I was randomly related to this person or that
because I they knew I had blood from Mexico.
One time I had pick up a call from overseas and the
conversation went like this :Me: Had a brief conversation in 汉语 (Mandarin) 再见 (Goodbye) (hangs up phone)
Another Rando Person: What were you speaking?
Me: Chinese.
A.R.P: You can speak that because you’re part Chinese. I can see it. You look it. You black too. And something? You awfully light-skinned.
This was happening EVERYTIME I went to that station, which was about 3 times a week. 3 times a week on its own doesn’t sound too bad, but multiply that by 4 weeks. That’s 18 times in a month. That’s being harassed. I am NOT a walking, talking, breathing guessing game. I eventually had to start going to a train station further from my house just so I can have some peace and quiet and not be bothered about my race.
It’s happened to me at one of my schools. I’m reading outside on a hill reading Harry Potter, minding my own business and some rando person just kneels in front of me, squinting and says: “I know you’re part black and Chinese, but what else are you?”
I seriously doubt that incidents like this will stop. People are nosy. Lately, I’ve been countering this sort of thing by asking, “Why do you care?” So far I have not received an answer but if I do I will let you know.
If anybody wants to share their stories, feel free to share.